Well I come to write again, but a bitter/sweet feeling to my feelings about this last month.
I feel positive and happy, after reviewing my goals for this last month- I feel I have fallen short.

But how will dwelling on those things benefit me or anyone else? Exactly… it won’t. So, what good happened this month. Well I enjoyed my last days with my parents and in a relaxed manner- we said good bye, after being together for 3 months. I was nervous before they came, as 3 months is a long time to have your in-laws living above you and to be with your parents, as an adult… but it was easy. And both my partner and I, found my parents extremely respectful and easy to be around.

The days after they left, I felt a hole in my days again… thank-fully my mom met a couple of amazing, hilarious Canadian women who have been filling up some of my time during the days. They have now been doing aqua yoga for two weeks- every morning at 9am we meet in their pool- and connect with our breath, mind and spirit. It’s a dynamic class- each class following the similar format but switching up certain asanas and lessons throughout. This last week for me has been a successful one as I feel although it took form as a week that I would be able to sustain.

I taught yoga every morning, have Spanish class, had an extra Ayurveda tutoring from Saran in Canada, met with an Ayurveda Councellor and Practioner in Tulum to engage and talk about possible future endeavors, I had my meeting with my teacher and we discussed that I should be finishing up my course by July-August.
I gave my first non-family, non-friend abhyanga massage to a person and it felt great. I was confident in what I was doing, and she really enjoyed it! So that for me is wonderful and a huge milestone.

Everything happens when it should. Although I felt people in my life wanted me to begin offering holistic services to people a few years ago, because I invested in training and had learned a lot- it took me two more years of practicing on friends and family and working on my own health, mind, body and soul- as well as connection and understanding… to feel that I am really offering a service. Now I am beginning to have faith, no only in myself- but in general and it is gentle guiding me. I really feel a strong pull to set up a very simple yet with a great atmosphere holistic space here in Puerto Aventuras where I can feel confident inviting people- however, for the next months- I am going to continue studying, teaching yoga- with whoever finds me, giving massages- with whoever finds my and Iris and also begin working at a store in Puerto Aventuras where I will be able to interact with people and help out a great company that is just beginning to flourish.

This month I moved places and now feel nested in my new place- just have pictures to put up and some construction to do on the roof, but other than that- it’s beginning to feel good here. I practiced a face massage with Iris, went to a Women’s night here in Puerto and met some really nice ladies, went dancing one night to Cuban music with Lucia and some pretty nice meditations.
I am beginning to have an awareness and different connection with truth than before, it’s a process but it’s very interesting. As I begin to study and learn more about Ayurveda I know that I am suppose to become a Practioner… but first I really need to begin following the guidelines of Ayurveda.

Yesturday I met with Saran, and he recommended that I begin a diet with Kitchari for a few weeks, and begin my day with Punja. Build an alter, place the image or model of a god I worship, light incense, have music or mantra and begin to start my days off like this every day. Begin to earth myself and involve the divine spirit within myself. He also recommended that I begin trying to follow one of the 8 limbs of Yoga guidelines called “ahimsa” which, is not to cause pain or conflict. Not to yourself or anyone or anything else. And to be honest, this is a brilliant plan and I am going to try and do this for the next 4 weeks. SO this will mean, not eating anything toxic, not being around second hand smoke, not watching violent images nor being around violence, not eating meat, not wasting food and not killing. This include mosquitos- but I mean, although I do not wish to kill mosquitos- if they are biting me- I am going to consider that war and naturally defend my body.  ANOTHER thing, which I had already known I need to work on- he reminded me is my eating habits. Now the truth is I am a SUPER healthy eater. I am probably the healthiest person I know… with that said, I also indulge in chocolate once in awhile or some snacks…  and the worst is I sometimes for no good reason, decide not to follow the guidelines of Ayurveda healthy eating.

Not always but I am breaking these rules often:
I eat without sitting down, I eat and run, in restaurants I have drinks with ice, I eat between meals, I eat before bed and later at night, I talk while eating, I eat when I am upset, I will have serious/upsetting conversations while eating.

He reminded me, that it’s not important of how healthy you are eating if you are not taking the time (at least 3 breaths) before eating, giving thanks to your food for it’s life and to enter you and create your body, to sit down in a nice, clean place and take your time chewing. Eating only until 3/4 full, not drinking fluids unless eating something dry and never drinking cold or iced liquids. He reminded me that EATING should be one of the most sacred things that we do.  It’s what we do to stay alive… to build our bodies.
You are what you eat.

Today I eat tofu sandwich, with the proper eating regiments, I will digest it and it will become my Rasa (plasma, lymph, chyle,breast milk and menses), then 5 days later what is left goes on to build my Rakta (red blood cells, liver and spleen, blood vessels) – then whats left goes on to Mamsa (muscle), then Medas (fat, omentum and peritoneum), then Asthi (Bones, nails, teeth and hair), Majja (nervous system, marrow and sclera), Shukra (sperm, semen, prostatic fluids, seminal vesicles, prostate gland, ovum and ovaries), Ojas (What keeps us healthy.)

So my next challenge to get back on track…build my Ojas, build my faith, release all negative emotions and thoughts, balance my Vata and anxiety… to finish off my program with good Ojas, with confidence and with radiance… while also, starting a new job, being a good partner and maintaining certain classes of Yoga. I can do it. And if I can do it…
then I will be excited to go on to my next level of school because I know how far this science can take a person.

Now that I have all of that out! I plan to blog about this challenge to help myself stay on track again- I feel that it really helps putting yourself out there….exposing yourself a bit and have that gentle pressure to stay on track.

This new moon you aren’t suppose to begin any new tasks or projects… but continue to or finish and continue ideas, jobs and dreams that you had before but never finished.
So with the help of this energy and my intention- I am going to begin to take my knowledge and devotion to another level- I am going to begin to worship and I am going to put my words with my mouth is…. breath, pray and then eat them, slowly and gratefully.