Do you quit? No… Do you get upset? No… You… Try again.
Everyday is a new opportunity for trying again.
Well I gave myself some challenges for last week which was suppose to go for 21 days.
Last week I had a visitor stay with me for 5 days and we did a little bit of travel. I was then lucky enough to be very busy with some work and searching for work some other days in which conflicted with my routine. But I did try my best to incorporate certain things that I know are important into my daily routine. However, I did sacrifice a few things, which in the end negatively effected me.

The things that negatively effect me are missing a bowel movement. Why does this effect me? Well because for pretty much the last year I have been rising and shining… shining being, going to the bathroom. Nothing makes your eyes brighter, than an empty colon to take on the day!
So what did I do wrong that last week I missed “shining” for 2.5 days- well, I ate late at night around 9-10pm and I went to bed for sure after 12pm and I woke up at the same time around 6:30-7:30am… and my body just did not have enough time to digest my food and get it ready to leave. It wasn’t happy with my lack of sleep during the week, with a lot of activity done throughout the day- which disturbed my Vata and potentially made me a bit dryer than normal.
I am a pretty active person and can take on a lot during the day… but I believe if I am going to be spending so much energy doing exercise- in the form of living (walking, biking, carrying heavy equipment, giving massages, teaching or following yoga practice, swimming, etc) then I need to allow my body the time to recuperate.

I have no problems waking up in the morning… no matter at what time I go to bed, but this isn’t always a blessing- if I then am not feeling like my normal energized self for the rest of the day. But I am not going to change the fact that I wake up with the sun… I need to change my ways and be more strict at making myself going to sleep with enough time to get up. Simple. I know it’s true- NOW, WHAT ABOUT ALL THE COOL THINGS THAT HAPPEN AT NIGHT? Well, I know, it’s true- it’s not common to be dancing Banda or Salsa at 4pm in the afternoon, or going to the local theatre at 6pm…  but my body is strong enough to take a night here and there of staying up later… BUT what I have a tendency to do is “Go-Go-Go”. I start staying up late, waking up in the morning, going and doing all day, and then return home tired… and then the next day is the same… and eventually I am just waking up tired, and going to bed tired… and then my bones begin to hurt, I get more anxious and moody and my appetite is variable… and my VATA is disturbed. And when Vata is disturbed, it doesn’t matter how much fun I am having… now that I know who and what balanced Becky is… I don’t really like Vata disturbed Becky. She thinks and worries to much and she is VERY, VERY hard to sit down and make study… which makes her more anxious, then she just wants to not think about and keep having fun, shuts down or gets overwhelmed.

BUT I do not have this option right now, and I can not turn a blind eye to all the tools in my own pocket. I need my own SELF HELP. I need to make my self serving routine, stick to it and reap the awards. My life is a VATA dream/nightmare right now. I am starting school again after a 6 month break, I am recently single after living with someone for a few years and then was just trying the dating scene and had a lot of fun but to much pressure came from the guys I was dating – which obviously pushed my Vata self far-far away. For the past month I have been on vacation for 15 days of it, traveling around to different places without any plan or routine established.  Then since I have been working some days in Puerto Aventuras, some days in Paamul, some days in Puerto Morelos… and all at different times and doing different services. Everything is new, I am only renting my place for another month and some and then will need to choose a new place to stay in for the next months before returning to Canada or perhaps just return to Canada… or perhaps just go to India haha… You see?  VATA. Air and Either. Movement. Going with the flow. No structure… but I have been okay. Because I have been doing certain things to help myself feel better, stay grounded, bringing more earth and water and stability into my life. I have been meditating, swimming, eating cooked vegetables opposed to always raw, giving myself some Abhyanga (with sesame seed oil/coconut oil for my Pitta), doing Vata balancing Yoga and staying away from to many fun, bright, loud things… just as festivals and parties. I have been eating my Chayawanprash Jam in the morning, having my lemon tea, cleaning my tongue and waking up with the sun.
But I need to do better- because I am having resistance to sitting down and studying. SO I can’t take back all the fun I just had over the past couple months. But I can go forth and be the Ayurvedic Student that I want to be and someone who I am proud of and someone who will be able to retain all the information I am now going to need to learn, so that I can in the future, help others… when they are going through times like this.
But first you need to be the change that you want to see.
So now- I am will stop rambling, go and mindfully cook and eat some hot veggie patties, with some rice and sesame oil, followed by beginning to watch a class video and studying.