“If you keep walking, you won’t get lost.”
“But, I think … I feel that I am lost…”
“Just keep walking, you are not lost, you are somewhere right now. Look around. Maybe it’s not, where you had first imagined… but is it so bad? ”

Did you really take the time to decide and manifest where you REALLY wanted to go? And how did you really, really, think you were going to get there? You wanted to arrive today? Yesterday? You never wanted to see anything else on the way there? Never wanted to stop on the side of the road to eat some fresh fruit? Help a stranger? Learn a lesson? Meet someone new? Did you not want those experiences you just came across? Did they not serve you, add to you, make you think, feel? Are they not what life is? So- then why are you worried about the fact you are not there… somewhere- you wanted to be. You are somewhere now. Obviously, you can only imagine what that somewhere will be like- but the beauty will be the in between and the thereafter. I’m sure it’s going to be beautiful THERE too…if and when you ever get there. But perhaps, their never is the THERE but it’s just our motivation to get up in the morning, brush our teeth, put on our shoes and walk, run, dance and leap …

This evening, I needed to make room on my computer. I began deleting photos from my last years. Photos with people I already forgot about- but who I really enjoyed meeting. I deleted photos of meals I shared, vacations, home-work, my students, my friends, dogs, family, streets…I just pressed the forward button as hundreds of images, flickered before my eyes. I am not the same person that I was 3 years ago. 3 years ago I was in India meeting Reiki Reena for my first time and today I am in Mexico and still have a relationship with her and receiving her blessings… still trusting in her and Reiki. 3 years ago I didn’t even know if I believed in Reiki… I didn’t know what energy felt like… looked liked. I didn’t know how strong, flexible and studious that I could become, I didn’t know what it felt like to cry underneath the ocean, I didn’t know the pure joy of being an aunty to 3 beautiful kids, what it felt like to have confidence as a holistic healer, to be lonely, to begin finally understanding what makes me so angry and what makes me so anxious, I didn’t know I would meet the people that I met that all taught me so much and shared so much love and life with me. These are gifts from the unknown- from being open, from travel, from taking chances, from being flexible. I learned a lot from a specific person who I shared most of my time with. I didn’t know how that relationship would begin or end. I didn’t know how long it would take me to rebuild myself… I still don’t. Sometimes I get upset when I try to be on a certain path and it doesn’t work out… but I need to remember this… I LOVE making my own path and the beauty and unpredictability it always offers, as well as it’s lessons, hardships and true bliss. I believe in Angels on earth. It’s good to have a destination in mind… but if you don’t arrive there today… don’t stress, have some tea and check in with yourself- and see if where you are is really that bad. And if yes… well tomorrow, brush your teeth, put on your shoes and March… and do a mindful march to where you FEEL you need to go tomorrow. What are you capable of in the now. Trust in your Universe. Trust in your God. Trust in You.
PS: This message is for me as much as it is for anyone who is reading.