So these past couple days I have been battling my balance.
So to the untrained eye or spirit- life would be normal in the house of Becky Huck. She would have been going to sunset, practicing meditation, some self care techniques, eating healthy, being active, getting things done, studying, being with family… BUT…  I know the truth. I know the truth that my Vata has been rising and things are beginning to show this.
2 Days ago I had Vata type stool. Which actually now I am thinking could be Pittaja and due to heat… heat due to perhaps eating a jar of dangerously delicious chili condiment in but a few days, the rise in temperate, giving long massage/therapies in the afternoon…list could continue a bit too.
Anyways, I wasn’t in the Western world constipated at all… but in Ayurvedic terms I would have been constipated. Constipation/Vilamabaka, This means that there is a difficulty passing stools or a decrease in the frequency of passage.
Normally I have a log like bowel movement upon awakening… so to have a more short, floating type of stool to me is evidence that there is accumulation, aggravation and overflow showing:
1) Lifestyle and diet are not harmonious resulting in dry and hard stools.
2) Agni is variable to low
3) Ama forms
4) Ama and dosha overflow into the rasa and rakta dhatus.
Now the relocation, manifestation and diversification of this is that
1) Apana Vayu becomes blocked (regardless of dosha).
2) Apana Vayu in the rasa of the purishavaha srota
3) Pitta in the rasa of the purishavaha srota
4) Kapha in the rasa of the purishavaha srota
5) Now if chronic, mamsa weakens and peristalsis becomes slower
6) The mind is often affected.
So aside from number 4 and number 6, unfortunately, I think my Pitta/Vata imbalance as relocated and manifested.
Note my stools were also very pale for a few days showing me perhaps I was producing more bile? (Perhaps…)

So pretty much, I needed to get my Apana Vayu (downward moving energy) to be realigned with myself again, up my fluids, avoid Pitta invoking foods such as hot sauce and alcohal and work with my root chakra.

I did Crystal healing with my Shamana friend here on Thursday, as it was great, but I defiantly had blockages in my heart chakra and my root chakra. This didn’t surprise me at all as I already knew this, felt this and have been “trying” to work with these chakras, however, not with great intention or much time invested.
Well- it’s time.

But well- starting today for the next week, I am really going to stick to my knowledge and see how I feel at the end of the week.
Avoid popcorn, hot sauce, more than 1 oz of fermented beverages or foods a day, eat clean and MINDFULLY and only until 75% full and also drinking digestive, agni building teas like ginger throughout day.
Comon Becky!!! You can do it!!!  EVERY DAY. ( See I am struggling… and struggling hard, I do great self care for 3 days, 5 days, sometimes even a week… then… less for a few days, then come back to it… But that isn’t consistent, I still havn’t learned to put myself first. I keep having the thoughts that I am healthy enough, and it’s so much fun to do all these other things… it’s fun to snack late at night, it’s so fun and delicious to have a bowl of tumeric, ghee, sea salted popcorn in the evenings while studying, it’s refreshing to have a coco-frio, or several times a week to have a cold beer or coffee mezcal over ice… AND IT’S TRUE- it is fun! It is refreshing! It is delicious! BUT- I don’t have the digestion for it, and this show up on my tongue and in my mind! I am an addict of not being consistent… I am addict of sneaking in cold drinks to my warm, spicy tea day.
Last night I warmed up my almond milk in the evening with some cinnamon… it wasn’t refreshing and didn’t taste as good as the night before when I blended together cold strawberries, cinnamon and almond milk… THAT was DELICIOUS! But it was a cold drink at 10pm … and the next morning, I had ama on my tongue… SO…  I feel gross and slightly dirty sharing this to be honest, I mean not really, but it’s a bit gross to have a thick layer of shit on the tongue- I mean right now I am not kissing anyone, so it doesn’t matter- but this isn’t a new problem, I have had variable digestion, weak agni for YEARS. So anyways-  I have two weeks to get my agni in control so I feel comfortable to kiss! (This is when I have a kissing partner coming to visit haha!)

Oh- uh huh moment:
So this is completely unrelated to this current situation, but I realized that last year while I was trying to take care of myself while working between 10.5-12 hour days and worried about having a Vata imbalance, that I had increased my oil intake… I was eating Kitchari, healthing foods, being active- but I also began to have mucous in my urine and stools. My stools also were often very oily.
At the time, I recognized this, but didn’t think much of it…
But I was over Oileating myself. Yeah- I never had the digestive power, the agni, to take on all the extra oil that I was taking. And even though I was eating beautiful food, I was also always rushing back to break- warming up my food, eating it in like 5-10 minutes in a dirty room with a bunch of my co-workers, talking, listening and then rushing back to work- walking back into the contamination of Power Plant particles. I was drinking ginger tea and spicy teas sometimes too- but the digestive system is a very delicate thing and mine is not to it’s full potential- nor has it been for a long- long time. This does not mean I am constipated, nor have diarrhea, nor have bad breathe, nor have cramps, nor have gas- but it means that it’s irregular, I have ama (toxins) being build up they are showing on my tongue in the morning and at night and perhaps I am not as clear or energized some days as I should be. Also, I went to a medical doctor (every 4 years or so this happens for full body check up) and I had high cholesterol, which is so crazy if you look at me- you wouldn’t think that and from the untrained eye of what I was eating, rice, beans, vegetables, hot sauce, spicy oil, ghee and kombucha haha… BUT I had a Kapha imbalance… I was taking in to much Earth and Water… and this can be stagnant and this can clog the body, if your agni (digestive fire) isn’t adequate to digest the oils! So well. I no longer have mucous in my urine or stools…  and instead of using OIL to becoming my moist, heavy food to help fight my air, either and fire- I am going to take more demulcent teas, that are also easy to digest … such as licorice root tea or fennel tea.

So from today onward, especially until my ama has cleared:
I Becky Huck, will not drink any cold or ice drinks, eat in between meals (at least 3 hours), overeat (more than 75% full), over spice (dip food into salsas), over drink (have more than 1 beverage in an hour- this I am making up to what I think, but over water and liquids put out fire too… so I think 1 drink an hour is probably good- I will prob learn more about this), or eat my first meal before 9am or my last meal of the day after 7:30pm and I will intellectually choose my food combinations and eat mindfully.

OKAY I Put it out there.

Cheers (of warm, spicy ginger tea) to healthy digestion and building agni!!!