I really don’t think anyone reads my blog… I mean I can even see if someone does, and nobody does. So I am given the option to be as open as I want here for myself as well as my future self…

So right now I only have one Patient to try and help reserve her less than desirable eating habits and fight against battling having her Pitta and Vata overflow into her digestive system and into her mind. AND that patient is me!

I tell you, I have very little earth quality to me- however, when I am working towards it- and I can begin to ground myself, I am the best version of myself. And that is why I know that Ayurveda is for me.

When my Vata is to high, I am anxious, it’s hard to multi task and complete the tasks, I talk quick, I want to stay up late and have fun, I want to eat popcorn and drink fuzzy drinks and go travel, my weight fluctuates day from day, I am grey ama on my tongue, it’s hard to keep to routine, my stools become dryer and often more like rabbit turds. When I am passing them, I am happy that I am not “constipated.” I can’t handle life as much and feel overwhelmed easily and just want to sleep to check out… or have a beer to check out.

When my Pitta is to high, I am motivated, I am focused, I am intense, I feel like I should always be working, or studying or making myself better some how. I don’t want to go outside of the box that I have created for myself. I am critical towards myself and others. I get angry or intense a lot about little things, mostly innerly towards myself. I am hungry a lot and I usually have more than one bowel movement a day… sometime more than 2 and they are usually on the softer to runny side. When I am passing them I am not upset by it- I feel although I am getting rid of the “shit” in my life. I can make myself go to bed at 9 and wake up at 5 every morning, even if I really had a bad sleep due to a number of factors. But I feel intense throughout the day and need to seek out cooling mantra, water, drinks… however, normally this is when I am wanting fermented foods, mezcal, spicy salsa… and copious amounts of it. My ama on my tongue is more of a yellow tinge.

I nearly never go out of balance in Kapha, as I have little Kapha already- but when I allow myself a lot of Kapha foods and activities such as wheat quesadillas, pizza, icecream, chocolate cake, milkshakes, television- especially crime shows and of violent nature, over sleeping, hanging around just “chilling”, avoiding exercise … then I will have less motivation for everything, I noticed my stools are heavier and just want to chill… I don’t want to learn and don’t have the ability or motivation to start many things. I just want to eat more carby and sweet foods… and for sure I have white ama on my tongue.

WELL-  so the main problem with all of this for me, if my AMA problem, this just shows me that no matter what I am choosing to do, I am choosing to ignore my sensitive digestion… and it’s because I don’t have disease YET… so I need to keep it this way.
Now I know how to eat, and when not to eat and what to eat to correct this… but I just can’t seem to stick to it… especially with my life being so crazy!

But I am hoping that NEXT week… really will be a good time to start again. I AM NOT giving up on my routine or goal to clear my ama. I know my Vata has overflowed already into my skin and mind- as I  am feeling dryer and more anxious/spacey … but, thankfully, I went to the beach the last two nights and did Vata pacifying Yoga… and it was DELICIOUS, oh my God, really- it was magical, how important it was to have that hour to be present, to breathe and ground myself. I did a lot of forward bends, took my time with everything and took time to ground myself. Beautiful! I was able to sleep as much as one can- with the neighbors having parties and the dogs barking non stop for periods of time… but I was always able to go back to sleep. I am having Vata stools right now and for the past 3 days… this is not my normal anymore, actually my pattern for the past year has been to go out of balance in my Pitta stools… but well, It all makes sence-  there has been a lot happening for me in the past weeks and nothing has been planned so…. I am going with the flow… but now need to begin to ground myself… and ground my digestion. Thankfully I have been taking my Vata pacifying herbs, ashwaganda and Triphala every day still, I think that has helped me from being constipated in the views of the West… even though I am technically constipated in the view of the east… and that means, I am mentally constipated a little too… not fully as I am still passing rabbit turds… but I think to be back to my old self, I need to focus on my digestive system this weekend… so my entire system can function again and life is ALWAYS EASIER when I can concentrate, remember and be grounded.

Well- now need to run to begin doing my practices and go to me new job! haha
Just wanted to log this: Treating a Vata/Pitta person isn’t easy. Especially in this temperate and diet isn’t enough. Treating diet and lifestyle IS VERY important and making appropriate pacifying decisions really make a huge difference and can be very effective- especially to temporary relief of being too intense or anxious. The use of alternate nostril breathe, hanukoman,  gayatri mantra, and dosha pacifying yoga- with an hour of present nature times has helped a lot- as well as, doshic pacifying yoga.

Snacking in between meals- if had meals at planned times has been hard to stop as well as snacking before bed… which all lead to ama. This is what I am going to go after to change!