I can not believe that I have been here for 6 months. But in the past 6 months I have really grown as a person, my Spanish has improved and I am a lot more confident.
Tomorrow I am handing in my documents to ask for a new visa in June- to be permanent… and I feel although I can actually be one. Since moving to Puerto Escondido, I have by myself- no help of a partner, best friend or lawyer… got a new phone number, found a place to live, arranged for a carpenter to come, found a job and had the interview in Spanish, opened up a bank account,rented a car and drove by myself in the mountains, got my drivers licence, licenced my scooter and started investigating in buying property and kinda adopted a dog. I am officially an Adult in Mexico.

—– And the rest of just my journal entry channeling out my thoughts right now:
The past months have not been to crazy but they have been BUSY as I have been trying to keep a very low profile and stay focused but I have met some great people and have offered some really nice therapies and seen some really nice results from them, some of my English classes really have gone well and I feel happy about my role in teaching and guiding children as well as being part of the College, I have made almost enough money to live off- which is what my goal was, I will always feel although I haven’t studied enough- but as of last night I have a new couple of ideas of how to study more, quality is better than quantity- and I have met some soulful people here, and well- I am going to be getting pretty healthy here soon when I do some Ayurveda myth busters- so those jaws of peanut butter, mole, chocolate bars, late night eats and mezcals… well- they helped me in the moment and I am grateful! 🙂

Sometimes I wonder- like what the heck am I doing? I am not looking for a partner, I don’t have kids, I am not really making a difference… I am not with my family or my best friends…  but then I realize that I am enjoying life… I am truth seeking, I am contemplating, I am understanding about other cultures and people… I am working like one needs to do… I am learning another language (even though I need to begin studying more) I am studying- something I am passionate about and really believe I can help people with when I finish my program… there is no race… there is no deadline for my life… if I die tomorrow… well… I am not going to by haunting anyone.
I am not walking around with hate in my heart, I don’t hate my job, I don’t have a bad relationship with anyone, I don’t have to many expensive for my chosen lifestyle…(well minus being a student in the US and making pesos- this is a bit crazy, but hopefully I can make some money again in Canada when the time comes.)

Yeah since December I saw some old friends, reconnected with someone I went to Puerto Rico to see in the Summer (unfortunately my feelings had stayed in Puerto Rico)… I sold some stuff and then moved by myself and 5 heavy bags to Puerto Escondido- here I knew nobody… and now I know quite a few people! I stayed in a nice place for Christmas and New Years and had my first sober Christmas and New Years then I went to Help a group of cool people build a Cob house for a couple of weeks and meet a lot of great people and get to know Oaxacan people a little, I found a place to live and made it a home and a workspace… I gave enough therapies to survive and for the past month and some I have been a Teacher at a local College. My friends from QR sent me the rest of my stuff and I have finished 4 modules in my school program, a friend come visit me and we visited all the cool spots along the coast, I had another old friend and new friend come and visit me… met some new people, a cool circle of women, been part of 3 cacao ceremonies, 2 new moon nights, 1 Kirtan, had my first Ayuhasca ceremony with Paloma Blanca and at the end of the month I am going to have my second with a lovely Shamana from Peru.

I am hoping the next 6 months will allow me more time and space for another Cob project, more in-depth study of Ayurveda and Yoga- more community involved work and just time and space to begin surfing and be open to relationships too… and I am hoping that I am doing this as a Permament Residente. TBC.