Be less intensely focused on the problem or the question, and feel more anticipation of the solution and the answer. “Esther (Abraham and Jerry)” This was in my inbox today.

For the past days I have been back and forth in between this advice… I know I need to focus on the end result, but the tedious task of planning, meetings, more meetings, finding the right people to help me- could be overwhelming.

Living abroad is great and magical, but sometimes I have moments of being overwhelmed with not knowing things- it’s SO HARD sometimes to just BE and let the universe help me. I don’t have many friends here that Speak Spanish or have time to help me during this period of important planning and decision making… I’m relaying on my intuition and the guidance of the Universe to provide the right people in my path… and I think it is doing it beautifully.

In the past month I have met more people here in Puerto than I have in months before- and each person has added something to my life… to my learning.

I’ll be straight- I am suppose to be studying a lot each day right now- but my ambitious ideas of buying land and starting my business- before I even finish my school has become a priority in my days. It’s be a full on experience- I have seen around 15 properties, I’ve been talking to notaries, and business planners, real estate people, lawyers, friends of friends… and it’s like SO FULL ON. Sometimes I invest hours into something- and I walk away – more confused than I was when I arrived. There is a lot to learn- but I am willing. I am open and SO grateful for everyone who has invested a second into helping me and although It’s hard to prove that my Spanish is improving- It is… Today in Spanish class my teacher was telling me I am now needing to listen to the entire sentence, not just the individual words to listen to how others are talking to me… this is SO different- and when I am doing it- I can’t even multi task my expression. I have to have a blank face and full on concentration. It’s like a huge difference. To really begin talking another language is way different than kind of talking… but only by speaking the language can I really feel like I belong here- to actually communicate with the people on their level. Not expecting them to understand my words that may be english or may spanish… not making the local people try and speak english to cator to my needs… but step up and begin trying to understand them and their culture and how to respect them in their ways- in their culture. The Oaxacan culture is not the same as the Mayan Riviera… and it’s not the same as in Mexico City- these people are different. Things happen here differently…the mentality is different… but I think, as much as I am a modern women from first world Canada, I am resignating with a lot of the ways here. I have messed up over the past months- by saying inappropriate things, being to honest about some things, mis-saying things… It really sucks when this happen. The more I learn- it honestly feels like the less I know… but I need to thank God for this opportunity of true growth and opportunity to develop and learn.

To summarize: At the moment, I am uncomfortable. I am alone, I’m tired, I’m making some irresponsible decisions, I am living in the moment, I am enjoying life, I am eating great food, I am killing my plants, I am not in routine, I am trying my best, I am trusting, I am manifesting- I am attracting.

Positive affirmations: I have clarity in what I want to do in my life. I am abundant now and I am happy about my future here in Oaxaca. I am a young, talented entrepreneur who attracts abundance by being good at what I do and bringing light and positive energy and ancient wisdom to the modern person. I am healthy, happy and balanced. Whatever will be best- will happen, I make positive decision, I am intelligent, my Spanish is improving, I am communicating clearly, I am guided by the Universe to be able to have a healing place for myself, my family and for my future clients, I am abundant, I have enough money for land, to open a business, for school, for courses and to live comfortable. I don’t need to do this alone- I am willing to be vulnerable and fall in love with my soul mate- someone who is on a equal path as myself.

My parents and family love and support me, I love and support my family. I have amazing friends who I can trust in and ask for help from- and they can trust and rely in me.

Today I went to the bank- and I dropped my keys somewhere. I checked the bike, the teller, the counter… and no where to be found. I moved my bike across the street to a food vendor to watch my bike while I was going to go home and get the other set of keys. (Incase someone had the keys and was going to drive off with it.) I went back to the bank and asked the janitor and she asked someone and they had them… THANK GOD. Now why did I drop or loose my keys?

A) I never had enough sleep because I partied the night before

B) I took on the energy of someone who looses everything in an energy exchange a few minutes before.

Regardless- I am lucky that I found them. That would have been unfortunate- but I am fortunate. Just a lesson to pay attention.

I spent hours upon hours in trying to set up a transfer-wise account and couldn’t in the end because I have a PO BOX for an address… but in the end I am going to use the bank and I think the rates won’t be that bad. With the help of my mom.

My Spanish teacher put me in contact with a business planner, who put me in touch with a real estate person- who is coming with me tonight to hopefully have a successful meeting with the owner of the land I am wanting to buy from… to talk about the contract…to be continued.