So- yesturday I wrote about being abundant on my FB. I wrote about it in a positive form. And then what happened? Well a friend and mentor approached me about some work projects in the future (but beginning to plan the process shortly), I went to friends beautiful Air BNB where he asked me if I wanted to start giving Yoga retreats there, I had another friend approach me about some possible yoga retreat/projects in the near future and I know.. I just know that as soon as I make my posters for self promotion of my therapies, I will be booked solid…BUT I ALSO, just got my e-mail from old faithful SP, back in Sask for 3 months of work Sept-Dec… so how much more abundant can one be… can I do it all?
I really feel although I can create abundancia here in Puerto, and I can attract and meet the right people to make my dreams come true. I want to work here in my community and help my community. And perhaps- staying here, would be the most intelligent thing… just stay here, stay in alignment with the energy here, keep building my relationships, keep being open to new possibilities…enjoy the natural, simple life- OR maybe, I go home and come back… because I also HAVE GLOBAL COMMUNITY. Like my dear friend Holly Raubenheimer was telling me the other day. ¨I am member of a global community… I don`t just have one community.¨ And you know what, I love it here… every day I drive around, I am in awe of how beautiful it is here, how cool it is, how many babes there are… and how good the food is… but I ALSO love Saskatchewan and the earth energy of the people in Coronach… and just going to work for a few months and then having money in your bank account that gives me more freedom… I can then build my natural pool, my cob house… have money to go to India..
I can reconnect with old friends… and If I can still share Ayurveda and give my consultations and talks there- well, I can continue my internship there- maybe just need to do night shift so I can go to my mandatory classes once a month… Last time I was there, I was eating a lot of kitchari and mung beans, I had a pretty great Ayurvedic routine and I felt pretty great…I felt although I didn`t regress in life, I didn`t postpone life- I made a decision that I would continue studying and working at the same time… and I made it happen. I can make it happen again… Whatever we believe we can do- we can… can I make this work. Can I bring 3 months of my Ayurvedic Councelor Internship to Coronach, Saskatchewan? Will I have enough people interested in their own preventative health that will be able to full fill my requirements of clients? Will I be able to support my community through diet and lifestyle, walk my own truth of preventative health and balance while work 10.5-13 hour days… will I be able to continue practicing Spanish… planning for sustainable build projects for the near future…can I continue to do it all…
Yeah. I think I can. I think I have been given a gift to have had this opportunity of SP calling me for the past 10 years… it has allowed me to travel all over the world, to pay for my second round of education without debt, and now allowing me to continue to stay out of debt and even give me a little bit so I can have my own dirt house one day soon.
Things are changing quickly, I may not be able to continue going back there- and they may not be able to continue calling me either… so I think I need to send in my CV…
They called while I was in Colombia… and that day- was international food day at lunch- where women from all over latino america brought out many sugaring sweets- and I left the party and I cried and called me mom- because I wanted to go back- but I also wanted to stay dedicated to Ayurveda.
and it
s so funny- because its not that I make SUCH GOOD money at SP. It`s not like I am going there for 3 months and making 50 bucks an hour or something… I could actually give 4 massages a day (and make more money while living here in Puerto… going to the beach in the morning, eating fresh fruit… continuing life…but it
I mean this is what I am feeling recently.
Sometimes even after giving a 2 hour yoga class-where I am being sensitive to someone and their needs for 2 hours- I feel although I gave away a lot of my energy… so I need to get better at this.
s hard to want to work so much here. Its hot and its beautiful. So I could manifest many cliets and begin working 10-12 hours here and make just as much money as in Canada... but, it`s different type of work there. There I can work 10.5-13 hour days… dedicate me entire day to work, day after day, after day… and I am doing manual work, some days back breaking work, shoveling wet mud, climbing in small spots and working- on my feet in hour in steel toes…but working and giving therapies… are different things… and this is something that I really need to understand more to and more people need to learn to appreciate… that when someone is giving you a real therapy, when they are connecting to what is best for you, to your energy… its more than just their time they are giving you, more than the materials, more than their expertise, their education, their experience… they are sharing energy- they are caring about you. And well- sometimes after sharing energy with someone, I feel tired. I need to clear their energy… reconnect with high vibration and I need to not take on their problems if they shared with me- but just stay focused on a plan to help them.I mean this is what I am feeling recently.
Sometimes even after giving a 2 hour yoga class-where I am being sensitive to someone and their needs for 2 hours- I feel although I gave away a lot of my energy… so I need to get better at this.
Or if I do a retreat- I think it will be abundant, a lot of work for a few months- but good money… and when I go to SP, I am working every day for 10.5-13 hours a day. It`s a choice to go and make bank- like a retreat, is a hard work to share something but also, has a value worth for your efforts.
But a few months ago, I felt like if I went back to SP in that moment, that I didn`t have faith in myself…didn`t have faith I could be abundant with Ayurveda and my holistic lifestyle- BUT it doesn`t mean that, but, I was suppose to stay in Colombia. I was suppose to take the Yoga Nidra and Yoga for your Type course- because they have made me a stronger and more qualified and sensitive, Ayurvedic Counselor and Yoga Teacher, I was suppose connect more with some students there, I was suppose to come back and be part of an Ayurvedic and Yoga retreat- to teach me lessons and to also inspire me to know that soon I am ready to be co-hosting and hosting retreats- I was suppose to meet the guys who are going to help me with the building projects and just inspire me by being cool- and I was suppose to meet my kindred spirit… and move into my new place to begin meeting another community of people… and well… everything has been happening in such a fluid fashion, and it will continue to be fluid… because I am living in alignment… and there is no closed doors… there is no need to worry, or fear that I missing out or making the wrong decision… because, there are always new doors and many windows. Fear isn`t really. There is no such thing as missing out- unless you stop living in the moment, because the present moment- wherever you are- is a precious gift and an opportunity to learn, grow and evolve. I really believe that for myself. It`s my truth-I can be happy anywhere… however, obviously… being able to sit by a pool half naked eating avocados and mangos… is a place where I like to spend a bunch of time.
So this could be an interesting couple of months then- July Puerto Escondido, make enough money to pay for my two rents now, go and meet some natural builders and begin to plan my personal low-key project, head to Playa del Carmen for 5 days and get the rest of my things last I left there over a year and a half ago… when I first moved to Puerto Escondido and END THAT CHAPTER completely. Then head to Austin, Texas to reconnect with my best friends for more than 15 years and see one of my best friends get married to her love! And then head to Sask… work and see clients and then come back to Puerto to continue to work and see clients and enjoy my family and – if all things work out, I will have a special partner for my birthday. I really feel love is near for me. I can finally say that I love myself. Because I know myself. I am I am curious about myself. I am not perfect. I make good and bad, healthy and unhealthy choices. But I am nature. I am tendencies and I know how to help myself be a pretty balanced person who has a really huge heart and is full of love and light- and she (I) am ready for another light person, who has also been doing personal work… so when we are together, we reflect each other, we mirror each other- we support and help each other- we have fun together- but we don`t take on the others persons shit- their fears,their insecurities, their stories… we just hold space for them and we continue living in alignment with ourselves… no expecting them to be a certain way- but, if they are in alignment with self and source energy- they are going to be a certain way- which is going to feel really good to be around.
July 01-05 (Give Yoga Nidra and Yoga Classes and Therapies)
July 06-07 (Spend time with someone who is very special and I am energetically capatable with- which means… who knows… yet.)
July 08-14 – Begin a planning process with some friends about some future retreats
July 06-07 (Spend time with someone who is very special and I am energetically capatable with- which means… who knows… yet.)
July 08-14 – Begin a planning process with some friends about some future retreats
July 14th-August 21 – Work in Puerto, Study Spanish, get internship going, go visit some sustainable projects and meet some new people here in Oaxaca, and begin to plan something for the future
August 22-Sept- Go to Playa del Carmen, begin to plan some workshops for the future, maybe get my one friend on board to come move to Puerto to help run my store and give her a taste of Puerto
Sept 9th-Dec 10th- Work in Coronach. Work night shift- even though its not healthy- I can continue my programs mandatory classes…ooofff…this is a sacrifice… but I think I make the somewhat negative experience, to be a positive learning experience… trying to be as healthy as possible for a shift shift worker.
Sept 9th-Dec 10th- Work in Coronach. Work night shift- even though its not healthy- I can continue my programs mandatory classes…ooofff…this is a sacrifice… but I think I make the somewhat negative experience, to be a positive learning experience… trying to be as healthy as possible for a shift shift worker.
Then- come back here and begin doing retreats, my personal project,
and then- Head to India for Panchakarma training….
Svastha - All things Ayurveda 
Leave a comment