The feeling of being broke and scared- yet hopeful and abundant.

The wide range of emotions when you are spiritual and believe in the law of attraction and abundance- but also, live in a physical world and have negative money making belief system still.

Today I checked my bank account and for the first time in a long time… I realized I am broke. Yep- she gone.
I have no scheduled work, I have no repeating customers that pay(all home for the summer or I make trades with them) I have no job and for the first time in long time I have many more expenses.
I need to pay for my 6 month Internship (Another couple thousand US to go…)
I have my monthly work costs, whether I make money or not- My office rent, office phone, account fees, Supplies
and I have a few other things now that I am paying per month including my personal rent, food and what not.

So when I checked my bank account and realized no more relying on my savings- I first felt panic… I felt sadness… I felt anger.. I had thoughts of worry and doubt. And when thinking about all the money I already KNOW that I need to pay in the next 5 months- I felt overwhelmed, I felt heavy… I felt like I am going to need to go into debt. I felt like I am going to have problems making this money… yeah I thought all this (this being only 10 minutes ago, I am still emotional about it all)
BUT  I need to make money… it`s just that. I am ready to make money. And I am going to make money. PERIOD. This is the truth. The other truth is that, I was really enjoying the past months of preparing for this moment. I was focused on several others things to help me be abundant in the future… to be abundant as a person… and adding to my skill set to be financially abundant starting now.

In March I took 13 days to go to a 10 day Vipasana Course, then I went to Colombia and spent 40 days there and took A LOT of training, and then moved and got my office all ready, went to a Yoga retreat, been meeting with people about work in the future, been connecting with my community, enjoying nature and dance and EVEN dating… taking time for love and heart, soul connections…and now I entered in my Internship. I needed to give MANY free therapies over the past 2 months to complete my therapy trainings from CCA and well now is the now… also, I know that my therapies are worth the amount I am asking. I know that I invested a lot into my trainings, time it takes me to prepare the room, the love and energy and high quality materials I use in my therapies and during the clean up after… It`s a good price for me and my client.

This morning I took my last class in preparation for my internship so- really I can begin giving consultations VERY soon. I have my office ready to bring in Clients from all walks of life- into a professional, private, clean, cool space conveniently located in a great part of Puerto Escondido, in La Punta. I am excited to begin working with people and I know that my services are a good service and that people with health problems who are serious about taking control over their health and finding solutions to their health in a natural, holistic and spiritual way- will come to me.

I am now even more confident in giving all my therapies after taking the advanced training in Colombia in May. I am ready to invite in guests visiting from any country in the world and locals who are wanting to try out my traditional Ayurvedic therapies- but infused with my well practiced routines and the secret ingredient of love and compassion.

I will be to busy making money of the next days, when people begin to know of my services and book with me- to go and visit a friend in Oaxaca like was planned- but yesterday he messaged me saying he will come and visit me here next week, so I can still give therapies every day until I need to go and take care of some personal things and to my friends wedding in August.

I fear not- that I do not have money in my bank account. That I am now relying on my community to support me back. There are enough people here, tourists, people making great incomes that there is financial abundance to share. And I will attract these people who are in a position to afford a massage. Who have the mentality of attracting abundance and the mentality for investing money into their joy, into their body and health.

Everything is good. I have fruit in my fridge. I have enough money for fresh water… and I am going to begin booking people for Monday.

I am manifesting that in will make enough money by August 20th to pay for my expenses (not including school, my food, personal life, travel, friends wedding) for the next 5 months- Incase I have the opportunity to work on a project outside of puerto for 3 months in September…. this I will know in a few weeks.)
So not including outside costs, all cost related to business and utility bills I need make at least $73,382.05 pesos by August 21 and I have 30 days to do this… so that means I need to make $2,446 pesos a day… that means I need to give AT LEAST 2 -2 hour therapies a day at my current discounted rate of $1,700 (less than $90 USD for a 2 hour therapy) and also need to begin giving consultations.
This is possible…  and I am ready for this.

I am excited to share a positive update to this- how the universe does listen, and does provide when you decide you are ready, willing and open.