I just ended my first date with someone. Satvic. Healthy. High Vibrational.

It lasted 5 days. First we met and he joined me as I ate, then I had things to do (finish a deal in buying my lost property #playingMonopolyInMexico and finding a place for my family to spend a few months. Both experiences were pleasant- as I was vibing good and in the vortex. The owner of the cabanas was really nice, and open, met some nice people living there and my friend helped me seal the deal with a discount for the lote… next phase begin building the natural empire haha… well at least put a good campsite out there.

Then we met and watched sunset and ate and regrouped the next day for yoga on the beach. We practiced Yoga, had breakfast, went for a swim and then headed to Chacagua to meet up with some of his friends for surf and relaxation. It was great to have a few days surfing. It was my first time in a long time and it was hard and awesome. We caught some bigger waves and pushed our limits… I felt a lot more comfortable and was able to get up and catch some, so it was super successful for me. There was a fire ceremony and just chill out time. We rented a cabin with two beds so there was no pressure and all was sweet. Then we came back to Puerto and ate more food, more sunsets, watch a documentary about a Yogi outside on a makeshift bed under the stars- then yesturday we went to yoga class, more food, more chill, therapy exchange, sunset and more food and today- yoga, breaky and parted…it was super chill, comfortable and spiritual. He is a super beautiful, calm and intelligent person that is fun to be around and could be fun to do some projects with in the future and for sure would be a good friend. I already consider him a friend- after a short while. A genuine person. But a las- although this guy lives in Oaxaca… and there is a lot more potential for a future…taking things calm is the way to be and at the moment, he lives 6-8 hours from me and I am planning on taking off for a few months… so well, I am just grateful for this gift. I was just given the gift to briefly get to know another person. Another good person who is trying to live his truth, meanwhile living a healthy lifestyle of surf, meditation, sustainable living and working in the holistic sector to making enough money to live, enjoy life and support his family. Yeah it was great to make another legit connection with someone who is living a life I find inspiring, and by being with them- I can learn things about myself and do more self work too. It was another beautiful mirror.
A different connection, different energy than my last date.
Although both vibrations were of higher frequencies with enlightened men- who are conscious and actively choosing to live a conscious life- there was different chemistry.
What is chemistry? Is it energy too¿ Can it be created¿ Can it be cultivated¿ What is a relationship¿ How long should one be for? Should you be happy to have had a connection for 24 hours… for 5 days… or should you want more¿ If you had chemistry once- will you have it twice… thrice¿ Interesting questions- perhaps with no answer, as all of this is an illusion. What I want to know is what am I really wanting?
I am beginning to tell myself that I am wanting a partner… and I want this and this and that and that as the qualities… and then I meet these men, and they have them, and they like me… and then I am not sure if I want anything more from that. But I am enjoying the experience. Although I can say, I am not into dating- as my very Pitta nature- feels like unless I have a real connection with someone, I don`t really want to just waste time having fun. Hahaha, its funny,  but it`s the truth. I am not looking for just someone hot to have sex with, or someone to go out for supper with or someone to cuddle with… I want spend time with someone who is fucking cool- who can teach me something, who inspires me… who I respect on many levels, and they understand me and themselves on spiritual levels. Guys who practice self study, meditation, cooking and eating high prana food and enjoy being in nature- because they realize they are nature and to be healthy, they need a certain lifestyle that allows them to destress every day while enjoying themselves. Guys who are ambitious yet appreciate the simple things in life. AND gracias Dios, I have been meeting these guys. THEY ARE HERE. THEY ARE REAL. OF COURSE. If I am here wanting and desiring and being this vibration- of course there are matches for me. There are matches for all of us.
My girlfriends and I need to change what we were saying earlier this year- that there no good guys here, no conscious guys… that is simply not true. Perhaps, we really need to look at ourselves in the mirror… and look at what we are really doing, how we are living and what we are thinking and doing- and see what we are attracting… and then accepting that as a reflection of our our vibrational match… and I mean, the fact I just met 7 amazing dudes this year without trying- but… we stayed just at the first stage of connection- is a reflection of my own self… that I wasn`t ready, scared, lack of desire to have anything more… and I attracted the same. Guys with potential- but with nothing more to push us to choosing us to become more. And I now know, that not all guys are just wanting sex and sexual experiences. I have tested the theory and It is quite possible to have Tinder dates without sex- and even without cultivating sexual energy… even with attraction behind the scenes. Its choice. Its knowledge. Its understand of self. Its practicing resistance. It`s being real. Understanding sexual energy and what it means and what it leads to- and choosing what is appropriate and when and why. Should two people kiss, just because they kind of like each other? Should two people sleep with each other, or next to each other- just because they can- perhaps, many people would say yes- WHY NOT? Love-Love. Be free. Enjoy human contact. But space and timing is important too. Chastity has its place and reasons. Sleeping in a bed next to someone or being with them at night and meeting in the early morning has its beauty too. Space and timing. Perhaps- this is a sign of more of a soul, friendship… or perhaps, just two people who are conscious and respect their space and enjoy high quality sleep and content to sleep alone. So well. Many things to reflect upon. But the details of these questions are just here for this page. I will concentrate, on the nice feeling of how good it was to have a really good date with someone conscious, someone who massaged my feet with his essential oils to help me sleep and give me gentle and simple, aromatouch therapy,  someone who I could exchange giving and receiving yoga classes with, who meditates and eats healthy and who enjoyed surfing with me. Someone fun to go on a road trip with, relaxed and ambitious to do cool projects and who likes to garden and sustainable living and living and walking his walk. Someone with a lot of Pitta- but a soft spoken version, mindful and balanced. Yeah, a nice date. I am happy that it happened. I am grateful that we took the time to meet and to become friends.

This time I never sat down on my couch after with a ¨What the fuck just happened¨sensation feeling like I just lost myself completely and then felt super sad at the realization that the best thing just happened… and is now is the past. And in the present I am now alone again.  But thank God, although I was sad for 3 hours, before I chose to not do that to myself- I never decided to close off my heart again. THAT IS NOT HAPPENING THIS YEAR. My heart is staying open and is going to stay open. I am choosing love and I want to have a relationship for awhile- someone to become best mates with and also to tell me I`m pretty and make me want to shower at least once a day. Hahaha.

Yeah this date, I felt a lot more healthy after- he left a few cute presents which made me smile, I never needed to cry… just content. And now- lets see what is in store for my next date.

Although, I don`t think I will be using much more of Tinder- just because I feel although I don`t want to spend to much more time dating these days… I have been really enjoying the past couple months. Tinder has brought me some great experiences and new relationships in my community, and for this I am grateful. Be the change you want to see.