Its not what you think. You can judge. You cant understand. Unless you have first hand experiences. So my suggestion to you is this- fear not, and be brave- have faith and surrender if you are ever called and if not... don`t judge-  the use of plant medicine.

1. 3 days ago I tried the healing plant medicine, that has been used my Indigenous people for thousands of years. I am not researcher or factual person, I did do my research before taking the medicine- but the facts are not mine to share. You can look online for that- but, I do know it shares some similar characteristics as DMT but it is stronger.
   Why did I take it? I took it because I am living in this world and want to be open to all the natural medicines that we have- I don`t have disease per say- I could even be classified as a healthy person… many people like myself are mentors, and guides… but as I am also beginning my path to be a guide… I want to be the best guide that I can be and I needed help for my inspiration, needed answers… direction… cleaning. Purifying. And I got this… I will go into details about my experience in a little bit.
2. Last night and this morning I was in an Ahyuasca ceremony… it was my fourth and it was heavy. I wanted to go into my darkness… my shadows, not just experience light and love – I wanted evolution… and I fought for it and I surrendered and I asked for him and I received… and I met many guides and felt a lot of love and had another life transformative experience.

These medicines are thousands of years old and are gifts to humanity. They are here to help us connect to our higher selves, to consciousness, to other dimensions- not so that we forget about our physical world, but so we can realize more of the truth of the universe, our potential and the true message and meaning of life… love.

I have now had probably have had more than 30 experiences with plant medicine over my years… and EACH experience…. EACH experience, I felt huge amounts of love.
Now, there is experience with taking plant medicine as a regular person, with a polluted body, around negative and unconscious people and noise and smells and environment, without purpose or intention… and then there is sacred ceremony.  I have experienced both… but there is a purpose for ceremony.

How it works? You prepare your body and mind by trying to cultivate Sattvic energy the days before ceremony… staying away from Ranjasic and Tamasic foods if you can. (Alcohol, drugs, stale food, meat, heavy foods, onion, garlic, etc) then the day of the ceremony, you have your last meal earlier- so you have no food to digest while you are digesting the medicine. The space is set up with protection and the shaman will cleanse you of energies with smudging. They explain to you about the medicine and the process and you set your intention.You have your place set up… bed (yoga mat, blanket, pillow) bucket (for purging), toilet paper… and then you take the medicine and you sit and allow it to begin working… and the music begins. The music is all beautiful sounds that connect with you on vibrational and ancestral levels as well as with lyrics that are jammed pack full of light and love and peace and happiness and surrender- it`s hours and hours of the most beautiful songs…. you then have a second opportunity to drink if you want more medicine (you are not feeling anything or feel you need more), and the night continues.
Every trip is different… you need to let go of expectations… of wanting, desiring and just surrender. Anicca.

Last night I never felt anything for probably the first 3-4 hours of ceremony- well I felt something… I had a little bit of feeling and some very light visuals… but it was’t what i wanted. I never came to the ceremony for a night of meditation... especially when I already have a meditation practice and have visuals just being sober. I never felt connected to the knowing of the spirit- I couldn't ask it any questions... like the other times... I felt numb. I wasn`t angry or upset- but I was disappointed, as I was ready to work- to face darkness… and then I realized, I was in my darkness.
Everyone has different manifestations of darkness… some people have seen really bad things in this life and others and watch violent things and like it- I do not.
I don`t have to digest these images.I don`t have fears of these things. I already have acceptance of death. I already know that when I die, I will reconnect with the energy and everything is perfect. I am not attached to this world.  Any friends or family that know me- know this, that I am not sad if I die early. I actually kind of expect it. I may even have some type of problem in my lungs, but I am just going to experience and enjoy life as much as I can. And I am going to help people connect to this light that I know- before I go.

My darkness is my shadows. My ignorance, my judgmental and analytical mind (Sadhaka Pitta), my coldness and unable to commit (Prana Vayu, Vata), my selfishness (ego)… there are a few more that I have, but I need to remember. (Check my Golden Circle chart for a few more.) I am not disciplined as I could be and I am not following all my healthy eating guidelines. I am inconsistent and I make many choices out of pleasure, oppose to what is best for my health… my digestion and sleep.
Three pillars of life, management of sexual energy, sleep and digestion. I do now try to get to bed before 12 each night at least, I eat real foods- there are very few occasions I am eating anything processed, canned, boxed and with many preservatives… I probably only eat fast food less than a handful times a year, drink pop around the same… I still drink lemonades and juice with sugar- but I don`t have sugar in my house.
Since May I stopped buying hot sauce and I don`t use condiments, aside from vinegar and oil and spices. BUT- I food combine poorly sometimes and over eat, eat between meals, eat late… many things that are not ideal for my digestion. SO WELL I digress. But this is important because, without healthy digestion, without proper sleep- my OJAS are lower. I am unable to handle life the same as I could if I was taking care of myself.  If I can´t take care of myself, then I wont have the same capacity to take care of others… and not be able to take on whatever the Universe really has in store for me… and I new that last night. When the different entities and gods were trying to show me things and share things with me but I never had the focus, I was tired, I wanted to just lay down and rest because it was so much- then I remember my Yoga class from earlier in the day- stay in the pose, dedication- discipline… and I tried to sit up tall again and take in all the information and it was really a beautiful experience, but I was learning a lot and had a lot of epiphany.

For the record. I believe in one ness. I will never not believe in the fact we are energy. I believe, I know I am spirit and body. I know I need to take care of my body because it is my vehicle for my spirit and with it I can do many amazing things- but I am not just body. I am not just of this physical world. And I don`t believe this physical world is what I had thought it to be. I realize now it is all an illusion and manifestation- a collective manifestation… and the other worlds and universes- are as well… just most people I know only know about this world because society has trained them to believe that plant medicine and certain drugs are bad, dangerous and illegal… well, I am here to tell you that- my first hand experience, of mushrooms, peyote, bufo, salvia, ahyusca is that is it safe, when doing so with a real shaman, with love, with consciousness.

I am needing to go meet some friends right now but I need to come back and these are some of the things I want to go on about.
1) Sharing after and everyones experience of life, and connection with self and understanding different between spirit and mind. Being filled with love.
2) Group consciousness
3) The music preparing us for our journey into the deeper realms
4) Sleeping outside in nature
5) Mother Ayhuasca, green diety, the big green man, the women with symbols and plants symbols images, Mother Ayhuasca, The gods with the tongues and symbols flowing from their tongues and out of their mouths, moving energy out, encouraging to move energy by purging, many symbols from other civilizations that I have never seen before, being contact with many messages, aliens, being curious, contacting me, me understanding them, us being the same in the end, my stomach gurgling, tantra, exploration of  my marma points, pressure points, mouth cavity, lips, giving self massage, understanding how ancient rishis had gods show them things… I AM NOW BEING SHOWN THINGS FROM THESE GODS- through not dedicated yogic practice, but help from medicine – but I understand that all is real. These entities are not my imagination, they are my manifestation- but they as real as I am. Just all my lessons and experiences of the past days are just SHOWING me, PROVING to me that I am on my path. I am here to heal myself and to be a healer. I can clean energy for others. I cleaned energy for others… my pain in the humanity pain and humanity pain is mine- but I don`t need to carry it. I can clear it… with help up medicine, shaman friends, ceremony, smudging, intention I don’t need to carry the energy… I can pass it.

I will be in love with someone and have a happy life the way I want it to happen, but first I just need to stay focused and be healthy. And I am going to begin with healthy eating habits. Its going to be my priority. It`s going to be my new job and my new experiment- how I feel now and after. And I am going to follow the guidelines of Ayurveda to do this.

Also, I think I moved the block for my lower chakras, and I think my sexual drive and energy is back, and will be improving through taking care of my diet and lifestyle properly.

What else…Alines…dietys, lessons to take time, energetic beings- ayurveda, light beings…

Oh yeah- when I feeling numb and suffering so much because of this. I just wanted to surrender and be in the love but I was numb. The Shaman and a friend sharing his gift of music came and sat infront of me and sang and it was beautiful, but I couldn`t feel it… i appreciated it but never felt it… then I went to the shaman and asked for more medicine to help get me out of my mind… and I took rape first… my friend served it to me and it was strong and powerful and then I just sat there, with the bucket in front of me- surrounded by 5 people I trusted and were in my life for a reason in this moment- 5 people singing around me, singing to me- for me (and all the other people and humanity, but it really felt like it was for me) as I just was trying to surrender, trying to get out of my head and the words were so beautiful and I was singing them as prayer.. on my knees…. weeping- asking to be cleaned… asking for purity… and then I purged (just 2 times and this was my first time purging in 3 ceremonies (another myth that I want to talk about with the medicine… its not puking and diarrhea all night necessarily) I took more medicine (my third cup), returned to my blanket and surrendered and I went to sleep and when I awoke- the gods were telling me they were there and I was in an experience, a magical experience where I learned a lot and finally new I was in a place in my mind- but more so my heart, where I could accept them and these lessons. I was not scared… I tried listening to them…  I wish I had more time with them. But yeah-  I will try and connect more through meditation in the next days.

What else- just this, the message is always of love and light. This time, many people downloaded about discipline and being healthy… I think as it actually was a large group of healers (life coaches, shamans, reiki …ect).

Anyways I am so grateful – I wasn`t going to do these experiences… but my shaman friend arranged for it all and I am grateful. (Holistic Therapy Energy exchange.) Later I will go into more details and talk about Bufo (my experience was for like an hour… I smoked twice so it was intense.) I cleared a bunch of universal and personal energy. I felt a huge shift in the lower chakras and had a crack in the lower back that allowed more clearing. The shamans were helping to clear me as I was going through my process. The hour started off leaving this consciousness, joining other- experiencing a great feeling and seeing things are very beautiful and with colours and shapes and laughing, euphoria, then cleaning energy and then the release with crying. I had an understanding of the personal work I need to continue to do and work on- being a healthy vehicle to be a healer and Ayurvedic counselor for others… also, I had a big realization about energy and healing energy and my own and just not getting attached to my own pain or the pain of others and just letting it go… letting it all go, always… and forever, our energy is changing and shifting and we just need to go with it and cultivate positive energy and energy that feels good and let the other stuff go… and not get attached to any of it.

SO basic lessons: Continue being light, don`t get attached, Anicca, live in the present moment, be healthy, have a healthy digestion, manage the 3 pillars of life, be curious, be open, be love, believe in the magic, make time for meditation all the days, yoga practice, have discipline, work hard- hold hour poses… work for things and release. Inhale and Exhale.

5 years ago my boyfriend at the time told me I was jumping around to much- and I just needed to focus on one thing… but all of these things are the same and tools to become the best Practitioner that I can be. I keep meeting life coaches- and well, I think after having successfully been an independent and healthy women, traveling the world, working for myself, staying strong and healthy- with no personal counselors, trainers, mentors… I am ready to mentor others.

The last years I have been busy working on creating a life that I am proud to live to become a person that I want to become. I had little self confidence, but I am now able to attract beautiful, successful men, inside and out. I am able to make and maintain friendships. I had the determination, discipline and understand to begin my own business and will be growing it over the next few years, I went to College again and paid for it all with the money I made while living my life, while still enjoying vacation, travel and experiences. I am have improved dramatically with my Spanish to a point where I feel confident listening to many (still not all) people speak, and I have been working on my body, mind, spirit connection and dedicating a lot of time to understanding and loving self.  I became a Reiki Master in 2013, Yoga teacher in 2014, Ayurvedic Educator in 2016 and now in my Ayurvedic Counselor Internship 2018. I believe in myself and Self and the magic of the world… where I am in consciousness is a place where I never knew existed even 5 years. And I am going to continue growing, changing and evolving. The main tools for success are guidelines from the sciences and healing modalities that I offer.
Ayurveda: 3 pillars of life- Managing sexual energy, digestion and sleep to prevent and treat disease.
Yoga: The eight limbs form a sequence from the outer to the inner.
Yama (abstinences)
Niyama (observances)
Asana (yoga postures)
Pranayama (breath control)
Pratyahara (withdrawal of the senses)
Dharana (concentration)
Dhyana (meditation)
Samadhi (absorption).
Reiki: The 5 rules of Reiki.
Just for today 1) I will be happy, 2) I will be calm, 3) I will work hard and diligently, 4) I give gratitude and 5) will be kind to others.
Vipasana Meditation: Sanskrit: अनित्य, anitya. Impermanence. Anicca or impermanence is understood in Buddhism as the first of three marks of existence, the other two being dukkha (suffering, pain, unsatisfactoriness) and anatta (non-self, non-soul, no essence).
Understanding everything is always changing and nothing is good or bad- it just is, and it just is to be observed.
12 Universal Laws:

From the Law of Oneness to the Law of Gender, each universal law has its own meaning and purpose in the Universe. When used together, harmony and balance in the Universe is always constant. ( Info below taken from website https://www.hyptalk.com/universal-laws)

1. The Law of Oneness
The Law of Oneness explains that every individual, every situation and everything else in the world is connected to each other. What someone else thinks or does may affect your life in some way and vice versa, even if you don’t know the person at all. This law states that there is only one energy flow and one mind, so everyone is connected to each other.

2. The Law of Energy
From thoughts to people, everything is made of energy, and that’s what this law stands for. The Law of Energy is also known as the Law of Vibration, and this means that energy comes in countless frequency levels. Energy and vibrations are being sent out into the Universe constantly, so the Law of Energy is always in motion.

3. The Law of Action
According to the Law of Action, you need to take action steps towards your wants in order to manifest them. An example of the Law of Action in natural motion is when a person gets angry and slams a door. The person is feeling angry, so his/her action is to slam the door to show that he/she is angry. Even if the person doesn’t want to be angry, he/she supports the emotion by action.

4. The Law of Correspondence
A very popular quote from the Emerald tablets states, “As above, so below,” and this means that whatever happens inside your mental space is reflected on the outside. The Law of Correspondence proves that what you think and feel in your conscious and subconscious minds is what you create on the outside.

5. The Law of Cause and Effect
The Law of Cause and Effect says that events don’t happen coincidentally. Everything happens in your life for a reason, no matter if you see how or why it happened. The Law of Cause and Effect can also be related to the concept of karma.

6. The Law of Compensation
This law is like an extension of the Law of Cause and Effect, and it means that what you put out is what you’ll get back in abundance. If you do random acts of kindness and good deeds often, you’ll receive good things back. The same can happen with negative actions as well.

7. The Law of Attraction
The most well-known universal law out of all 12 is the Law of Attraction. From the words you speak to your beliefs, you attract everything in your life through energy. You can even attract people into your life who have the same energy frequency as you. Like attracts like, so whether it’s negative or positive, everything you see in your life is what you’ve attracted.

8. The Law of Perpetual Transmutation of Energy
This law basically means that you have the ability to change your life into anything you want. It’s your responsibility to transform your life, and it’s your choice to accept or reject the opportunities that the Universe gives you. Energy is always in motion, and you get to choose whether you want to go with the flow or not.

9. The Law of Relativity
Every life obstacle is an opportunity for people to change their perspective and life so that they can continue to improve themselves. These tests from the Universe also helps us learn to let go of judging events and people as good or bad, nice or mean, etc., which we do when we compare ourselves to others. Everything in the Universe is just existing, and that is what the Law of Relativity means.

10. The Law of Polarity
This law states that everything in the Universe has an opposite. The Law of Polarity helps us understand the difference between positive and negative thoughts so that we can change thoughts we don’t want into thoughts we do want.

11. The Law of Rhythm
Everything in the Universe has a unique rhythm that it beats to, and these different rhythms develop into patterns, cycles, etc., in life. The Law of Rhythm encourages us to follow the natural flow of energy and harmony of the Universe.

12. The Law of Gender
The Law of Gender is commonly related to the concept of Yin and Yang, and it states that there are masculine and feminine energies in life. It also tells us that everything needs time to nurture and grow in order to balance and master the masculine and feminine energies within ourselves.