I should have been blogging. The past two months have been a wonderful whirl wind…work, wandering, packing, traveling, reconnecting with friends, meeting new people, helping to build a cob house,finding a place and finally… sigh, I have just kinda set up my room for the next few months. I wanted a place close to the beach, private bathroom, private or shared kitchen with like minded people (I found a place with a private one) and also I wanted a place where I could be community with people and not be isolated… only time will tell, but I chose a place with a bunch of rooms and I am hearing music tonight from one room… I also love having music playing friends.

I was inspired to write tonight because I am wanting to keep track not just my life events… but mostly my Ayurvedic progress. And tonight I began setting up for my success again. In the past weeks I have tried to keep certain Ayurvedic guidelines and my personal practices in mind as I lived my life and kept my health, strength and digestion up/normal. 

To be honest, I am happy about it… yet, striving to be better. I have learned that being rigid of the rules doesn’t make anything better, nor feeling guilty about it… nor sticking to every task of your routine- possible while traveling or camping…example netty pot when you only have a fire to cook on and are using smokey ashy water. If you need to cook on a fire with only one small cup available… skip the netty… and instead focus on some pranayama.

Well tomorrow I am going to write about the great news about what I am doing on February 1st-7th and really looking forward to the possibilities that February- to April has to offer as far as my parents and I taking our health to the next level.

Needing to re-wire some previous thinking. Even this week, I am beginning to think differently about dairy products and fish and will be trying something new over the past months involving letting go of certain loves and or habits that really don’t serve me. And also letting go of certain thinking patterns- like being afraid that I will be difficult to be around or to eat with, or boring- if I don’t drink or eat cheese.

I feel a shift to begin trying things that will just make me a better person, inside and out… but also, needing to investigate my fear of becoming to straight laced so that other people are offended by me or other feel disconnected from me because of my choices… WHICH this fear, is based off of just my own perception and sometimes conversations with others similar to me that also share the same fear and a place of judgment to those that have reached the level and self care I desire- but aren’t the people who you go out and do things with… usually these people are doing self care at home, or doing cool things … not going out to places to watch music and dance, getting silly and meeting new people and …. wait. My last two thoughts are bull… these people can be fun and I can be a fun person too… sober. And if while I’m out, I don’t like any of the people that are out and/or don’t feel connected to any of them… I need not have a drink or two, to begin to have fun with them… I need to just enjoy what I can and or just go home and begin trying to find friends that I enjoy sober. Fun, light hearted, intelligent, growing, conscious, active, traveling type people. Hey I have an idea… I could probably meet them at the beach in the morning, at morning Yoga classes or even… by golly, doing what I came here for… surf.

This week I really want to backtrack and try and write about my incredible December and January. I want to write about my experiences being sober and feeling buzzed, first sober New Years in…years… first sober Christmas… in years… my weird, isolated at times demeanor I am witnessing, the amazing people of Puerto Escondido and the daily chats, and then my road trip to Ixtepec to bring in the New Years with 2 weeks of a Volunteer project, helping to build a cob house in a community affected by the earthquakes this year and still being affected. Teaching a lady yoga in the bus station, Ladies who owned the empanada place, dancing at the market and all the love and openness from the women there (even sharing a beer down my shirt), Zumba, free hot dog/food/percentage off bill, Lupitas’ and Vincents’ farm, the water holes, going 15 days without a shower and going 6 days without being clean or connecting with water…the legend about the water hole, making a tough decision and self care/thinking about it to much after and now needing to cut cord and or send healing to that day, realizing I’m empathetic and being around to much negative energy is something I hope to avoid again for a very,very long time, police, translating/tired and talking english to english person, Mazunte, Zipolite and Shambhala, Having life loving senior citizen show me around and pull a special cigarret out of a post like an elf, being complimented “You know how to live life”, getting sick/not digesting food after I made decision to eat after 7 and then who knows what/ but maybe my body is working now with my intentions also dog barked at me which upset me. Experience with new friend, meeting girl from Vancouver island, the lovely lady at Sierra Dorada, Yoga class, handling more negative energy, Reiki session, Zapoteco massage…and well so much more.

ALMOST ready for Surf and Study. Tuition increase of 1000 making me anxious and 250 more hours of course added… my routine and schedule for February, and March …that sums it.