February Plan/ To be worked on revised as the month becomes manifested and understand course load.

Goal: Be light in mind, body and spirit. Anchor new knowledge.

Daily Routine:

Wake up at 5am

Grateful meditation/Afirmations: 15 minutes.

Tongue Cleanse, Brush teeth

Jaja Netti

Ginger water

Abhyanga/ Sesame Oil

5:30-6:30 am
Personal practice/ Vata pacifying/Hand stand prep

7am-8am
Teach yoga/ (Kapha Reducing)

Magic bullet coffee/juice/coaching with students

8:30: Shower

8:30- 12:00: Study

12-1 Lunch/ Plant based diet.

1-3: Therapies/Grocery shop/House work
OR Study/home-work  if want to be free of school by 3pm.

2:45: Tea

3-5: Study/ Or Play if finished studies for the day.

5-6:00/ Sunset/Friends/Family/Surf/Paddle Yoga

6:30 Supper

9:00-10pm Yoga/Meditation/ Reiki/Plan for next day/Winde down/

10pm Sleep

( Once every two weeks enjoy late night dancing, at least 3 times a week Surf, daily Yoga, daily teaching Yoga in A.M. No rigidity, discipline, honesty. Sundays free day to follow what my heart wants to do.)

The past couple of days I have been processing and doing so much mind/heart/life work.

Integration.
On Friday we gathered again and we communicated from the mind and from the heart. We drank again together and Paloma Blanca gentle entered our bodies again as we use her energy to connect again with out hearts. This time she was mixed gentle with mushrooms. The colors were more pronounced and just giving space for open communication, counseling, self love and acceptance was the magic. All of the answers were within before-but with the gentle guidance and support of the tribe, things are moving quicker.

I’ve been accepted into a tribe of warrior goddess’s and I am so happy and honored to have met so many people already that are honest and open and working towards a healthier happier version of themselves, which reflects in their world around them. I really wanted to make some women friends and it’s so great that just beginning my second month here community is being formed. Blessed.

Be the change you want to see.

Along side with self love and acceptance, if we begin to know ourselves and the patterns of our minds and rhythms of our cycles -we will begin to understand why the world is such a way around us.

We are creating what is around us.

We are attracting what is happening to us.

We are responsible and with the opportunity of awakening, we have the beautiful opportunity to play an active roll in our lives and in the lives of others. To choose our path intentionally on some days- and some days if we need to just relax, just surrender and have faith that the universe will continue to guide you… as  you relax and have this faith, you are in a way still manifesting the best out come for yourself…it’s a beautiful way to always be active and present while also, being human and busy with what we attract into our busy, human lives.

To be disciplined and not rigid.

To begin to speak in positive and to gentle change negative thoughts , expressions and thinking patterns to be positive.

To continue to check in with my heart and not just use my head.

To trust my heart and not doubt that I am able to connect to you and that it is here as my seat of consciousness to act from the place of my higher self, my soul level.

To accept my ego and human ways and all of my conditioning and all I feel and process in a day by being connected to the people and their emotions around me, but play an active roll of protecting myself and my energy, to asking for help to help raise my vibrational frequencies, to step out of the shadows and choose positive transformation and to naturally gravitate to only things that serve me. We are what we eat- and who we surround ourselves with… I like diversity, and I realize that when I am annoyed or am judging someone on there way of being- I am truly, judging myself. More and more, I am seeing the reflection of my true inner world and darker world in those that are around me and that I come into contact with.

And then after the ceremony of heart, and drawing our tarot cards and contemplating what we are here to work on.. we decided to share in meal.

We went to my neighbors place and we met an amazing group of people.

We shared in drink and dance. Very free atmosphere with great music, dancing under the moon. We had a group hug… where we are connected and felt the divine in one and all. We played and pondered… It was beautiful and refreshing.

The next day I went to the river with an entire different group of people, and this group was also just amazing. Gems of the earth here to help themselves and others to be healthy and happy. We came back and shared in making supper and then eating our vegan meals together as the sun set behind us.

Then I hung out with a new friend who was a gentle reminded and gage of my heart. He made me think and stop and rethink… catch me in my stories and negative thinking patterns- especially towards myself and all the ways that I am holding myself back and continuing to live untruths… or truths, only as I am manifesting them this way.

Why I choose to live in a life where I think that I am not enough, that I need to be struggling, choosing to have anxiety about being a student and it needing to be a challenging year, why I choose that I need to be alone, that I won’t attract a partner who stimulates my mind, body and soul and will be able to allow me to grow to my full potential while he is beside me, continuing to grow to his full potential, why I feel although I need to protect myself from people and undesirable, that I need to study more and more to be a good healer. That I am intense and do not laugh.

None of it is true. And as soon as I realized that my mind was saying all of this, I put it to the test.

Yesterday I was walking around from my heart… and as I connected to my heart, I began to smile and radiate love and when I walked past people and said hello, or good morning- they radiated the love back to me. I made more connection with random people… I made contact with men who yesterday I would have looked the other way from, as a way to protect myself… from something… but not to sure of what… what’s the point of being shy or worrying about people judging you on your physical appearance? This is not practical, nor the way I choose to live any longer. I am that I am. I look the way I look and I am beautiful in my own way- as we are all beautiful in our own ways. Nature is beautiful. We are nature and we all look different and the true beauty comes from within. It is the truth.

The pain of the world, need not be mine to feel and to digest, but to recognize when I am feeling it and to let it go. I choose to radiate love and joy.

I was able to come across to others as the light source that I am. People felt it and responded to it in actions and words. I was able to help heal, from my heart not from books or from ancient techniques, although learning the disciple and path of lineages of warriors and sages before me will help to guide me on my own path to continue my growth.

But knowledge is useless if frozen in fear. It needs to be practiced and to be expressed and shared. We will never be a master unless we practice and set time aside for dedication to the things we value most in life. 

This year I am not going to hide my feelings, insecurities and negative thoughts from the world…not that I wish to drown those around me with them, but my experience in the past days is that by sharing- others have the opportunity to help me and I so actively want to help others. 

I need to have truth in myself… but also others around me that they offer support and love to me and my camino and I will support them in theirs. That is what having a tribe is about- gentle pushing and acceptace. We are all each others teachers and need to own that and take back our own power and the power of our communities and tribes globally.

Empowerment. Leaving behind years of negative, self limiting thoughts and moving forward into light and love and acceptance on all levels… while beginning to do gentle work of practice of affirmations, mantra, spells and spiritual cleansing work to be someone who speaks and lives from her beautiful heart in all moments of the day.

Connecting with my spirit animals and those spiritual guides around me and accepting them and requesting assistance from them to help higher my vibrations and to help guide me into my healing work and study.

I was going to set myself up for failure this year- knowing my own mental mind patterns and tendencies towards anxiety when it comes to self pressure and memorization… but it’s not going to be like that. I am going to study and I am going to learn and memorize and share my knowledge and I am going to enjoy the experience. I am going to take care of my mind, body and soul as I work towards completing my education as an Ayurvedic Practitioner and when I begin my internship, it’s going to be magical of how I will begin to help others -EMPOWER others, to empower themselves, to be healthier and balanced versions of themselves as they play an active roll in who and what they are. We are all manifestations of God, of life itself, of the 5 elements and of all around and within us, our past lives and past lessons and karmas. This life we are here to continue on our awakening…  society as a whole is shifting and the power of the people is being recognized, and the fear we have is evident that we are not enlightening to the powers within themselves. Is it because we were told, that there are to many people already on this planet? Is it because we were told that you need poor people to do certain jobs to make society work? Whatever, fear based reasons and thoughts we have about our world coming to an end, going through the dark time…  is the reason things are happening. BUT- poco-a-poco, as we truly learn the truth about ourselves and our powers within- this will be manifested and shared without. This year am not just working towards a degree… but a certain quality of life that will inspire others. To be a frequency people will gravitate towards and also to help me to raise my frequencies to stay strong, healthy, happy, positive and at the service of others.