It’s like I just came back from a retreat or a vacation- having been connected with Abuela Ayahuasca again has left me recharged and reconnected.

Now- four days later – my blood should be clean of her- but her impressions on me, I hope will last a lifetime. I won’t go into much details, but I will say that I had a fantastic evening and day with the Shaman and group of people. I learned a lot, I felt supported and safe, I had a profound experience, release and fun. The shaman was beautiful- really… I really enjoyed her, especially throughout the night as she worked so hard for us- cleaning us, purging for us, playing her drum and singing and holding space and monitoring and offering and loving and teaching and buzzing around like a hummingbird- singing and laughing. So many magical things happened throughout the night and morning… I never purged or felt sick throughout the experience, but my eyes wept a lot and I had a lot of emotion move out of move and I feel I got rid of a lot of intensity that I had on my shoulders… this week, I felt way more like myself. I never felt stressed at all and I was making positive decisions- and some really positive things happened too… It just reinforced that I am a healer and I am suppose to be one and it showed me that being a healer … is a really, really beautiful gift you can give to the world.  If I can make myself knowledgable and strong enough, balanced enough- I can really help the world… help clear negative energy, hold space for people- and not take on their negative energies, problems, dramas-  we are all living our own manifestations- my role is and won’t be to change their consciousness and to change people- my role is to share my power- my knowledge – the knowledge of Ayurveda, of Reiki, of love, of faith- my role is to support … not judge and not get to involved- not get to involved…and through the power that everyone else has is their own role to their own healing. Everyone has the opportunity for enlightenment and self awakening, for connection and curing – they don’t need someone to cure them- they need to cure themselves.
I still need to contemplate this more but that is the the jest… also that life is better more simple… and having more time on your hands to be able to be involved in community, to be in the present moment … to stop and laugh and be smitten and amused by the beautiful details all around us- is really important. I have a lot to learn from the people here too- and this is why I am here. The Oxacan people are so amazing… and the people from the town and their simple yet blessed and bountiful lives- with their fresh food and sense of family and having fun and having faith is really something not to take for granted. You don’t need to go to pay money to go to school for many years, or go away to work in the city- to be successful here… you don’t need fancy cars, clothes, houses- to be beautiful or respected here… you just need to work hard and be passionate about what you do.  I also think have a relationship with nature… not everyone is going to spend time in nature, but they live in nature. They live at the beach- they live with their windows open and their kitchens outside. They their time outside- first off because it’s to hot inside haha, but they are not brainwashed by mass media… not to say they don’t enjoy a telenovela, show or too… (today one of my students asked me my favorite telenovela…lol… but I digress). I am from small town- so I am have been lucky to be around people of similar mindsets before…hardworking people, farmers and oil workers and teachers- people who know what a potluck is, fall suppers are, town dances. People here acknowledge each other, know each other, say good morning when they get on the collectivo, wave and help each other out- their is a strong sense of community here. There is a truck that drives around telling about the local activities- during our ceremony, he was telling everyone that in the morning on a certain street there was going to be tacos- really fresh and good price! This was amazing… it made us all laugh… it happened during our pre-talk, so we needed to stop talking for a moment until he was done promoting… and then again in the morning he reminded us all!
Sunday: After the ceremony we all shared our experiences, had a flower bath (the shaman washed us individually with flowers and herbs), ate breakfast and went home. I relaxed for a few hours and then went to the beach to write and have sunset Yoga and then met with a new friend to check out the Bazar here and go for supper.
Monday: Yoga at 6:30am in the beach, swimming, work/training and class- met a new neighbor and my other new friends from Canada come over for Supper and they brought me a lot of really great, fresh food like home made coconut cream, sauerkraut, tumeric, peanut butter, curry, seeds, nuts, fruit, oil… lots of stuff and different things, jars, cooking gear to use over the next months- even a fan! WHICH I almost said No to and I am LOVING it already so much!
Tuesday: Yoga at the beach 6:00 am, taught someone a little bit of yoga, chatted with my new neighbor for awhile, taught school and went for a walk at sunset.
Wednesday: Yoga at the beach at 7am, met with a new friend about some new work possibilities coming up, went to school- came home, taught sunset yoga to my landlord and kids and had a sunset swim and now winding down
I am hoping Thursday and Friday will be similar- tomorrow I am meeting with my master Teacher and then going to be beginning another module.

I think I am ready for June to be a month of continuing to make positive choices- and actually even better- I am going to add 3 new things to my Ayurvedic lifestyle starting June 01.  My goal for June is to truly get my digestion strong again. My problem- is that I don’t have a “problem” so I have less incentive to change my ways… but I know that I need to change my ways and if not for me- for my future clients. I am VERY zoned in right now on peoples tongues as they are talking and see A LOT of grey and white tongues recently… yeah, it’s kinda weird… but well, life as an Ayurvedic student… so well, I don’t want people to be looking at my coated tongue. Actually, this is too much sharing, but I’m going to do it- the last person I kissed I was very grossed out by the flavor of the kiss… I can’t remember what it was, but I wish I did- I now know that if it’s a Vata imbalance it will be an astringent flavour in the mouth, Pitta bitter and Kapha sour. I don’t know if this works if you taste this from someone else or not- but well, moral of the story is… I am going to clear up my weak digestion, eliminate my ama, have a clear tongue and hopefully get my mojo back to kiss someone- and also check out the other persons digestion and dental hygiene before there is any kissing… (Stomach flip- double flip.)  I am going to stoke my fire and keep it stoked all day long and digest my food properly and make proper food choices- based not on what is healthy or unhealthy- but what is best for me… which means, I am going need to stop eating and doing quite a few things that I am currently doing.
( Cold chocolate almond milk before milk, cold juice in the morning, eating and drinking randomly on seeds and fruits throughout day without hours in between foods, eating standing up, drinking cold drinks, over eating, not pre-soaking my beans and Quinoa, snacking later in the evening, adding to much oil to my foods (I made this salade dressing of sesame seed oil, sea salt, maple syrup and some other spices- and it is so SOO good- that I was putting it on everything… and even eating more things just to put more of the dressing on…seriously, it’s delicious.)

OKAY SO New things i’m adding to my life to take back my digestion! (I am trying to be funny here, but I really mean- to relieve my Vata and Kapha Ama, stoke my agni and keep it going and follow best eating practices… then my body will have an opportunity to really detox itself and repair itself each day.

1) Oil Pulling
2) Eating a warm, Ayurvedic breakfast and lunch and supper
3) Not eating after sunset

I think I am doing good with the scents, colours, yoga, activities, pranayama, meditation … just need to master my diet now.

In June I am going to be starting to be starting to make some videos again as well for fun and I’m hoping that by July I will have a real good news to share.