So I am needing to complete a project…
so this is a perfect time to write here on this blog.
I am hopefully going to make it short and then get back to work I just wanted to make a little update because I feel although some good things are happening today.

First off, I have almost completed 2 months down here working! I can´t believe it- and I am so busy working (10.5 hours) and then doing internship and other work after work, that I havn`t even had time to be bored yet.
These past days I wake up between 4:30-5:30 and I often give myself an Abhyanga massage, sometimes practice asanas, put the dried dishes away, make my tea and I go to work at 6:30. Work is either a labour job, where usually involved half or full face masks, blue suits and a shovel… or sitting and man watching (confined space observation). I come home at 5:45-6pm and then I usually have a client from 6:30-8:30/9pm) and then it is time for bed. I`ll have a Client Consultation, teaching a private Yoga class, Giving Abhyanga Snehana (2 hour massage therapy) or Reiki to some new clients or else working on my school projects and home-work. So far I`ve taught 3 yoga classes, given 10 therapies and had 6 Ayurvedic visits while I`ve been here and completed well over 80 hours for my internship. Right now, for each client I usually need about 42+ hours to prepare all of their paperwork for their first 3 visits and meet with my supervisors about their cases as well as scheduling and all that jazz.

I have been confined to my home every night except on this past Thursday I did something for the first time in over a month. I organized a bowling, pizza party for my crew… it was fun and everything turned out in the end, due to an angel of a man who stayed and helped me on several levels of otherwise could have been stressful stuff. When I got home at 1am after cleaning up the place I realized I had forgotten to lock the door- so I wandered back to the community hall in the quiet streets of Coronach. It`s winter now here, but the wind was down and it was actually a beautiful experience. 4:30 came early that morning… but it was worth it. However, I became VERY VERY tamasic, and I ate a bunch of pizza- and on Saturday I was a shadow of myself. I was bloated, heavy and tamasic, very ranjasic in my mind. It was actually a bad morning. I am stressed out a few things happening with my internship, and I just need some nurturing and love, communication and it`s not available right now and it makes me go down a spiral of a ¨poor me¨ drama… and I get scared, which makes me angry… and I hate being angry. So yesterday, I really had an emotional morning and I finally was able to make myself feel more positive through talking to a classmate, encouraging each other, and listening to Esther Hicks 😀 My fave Guru ever, watching some videos from Reiki Reenas group… and going to be early.

It`s humorous to witness my anger and emotions, from almost a detached way sometimes… it`s like I know exactly what is going on. Why I am angry, where its coming from and sometimes I just choose to turn it out and self talk myself into a positive mind frame- and sometimes I want to be in the drama for a little bit. I allowed myself to get really worked up last Thursday about something to a point where I needed to go have a cool down break and push away angry, fear based tears. But I really need to be careful about my dramas and what I put out there- because I attract things quickly and my universe changes quickly with my thoughts, emotions that I am putting out there. So I am going to be grateful for playing the witness for these past days and now- just move on with life and keep practicing present moment and manifesting positive outcomes.

Well I had the house to myself this morning, I woke up at 5:30 and began my day- struggling hard to get motivated to do yoga… but I began to clean the house, e-mail my accountant things they needed, did some laundry and then finally started with a 17 minute chair yoga (testing out a class for a loved one) and then did a 45 minute class after… then I watched some motivational speakers, went to the co op for fresh food (because tomorrow its closed), worked on my business plan (went back to the coop with my truck to get some water), then I talked with a carpenter who does natural building in Brazil and got inspired and will be sending him my drawings and see what he thinks, and then I checked out work away and made a profile- in preparation for my project… I DO NOT WANT TO HIDE AWAY FROM MY DREAM. I HAVE NO REASON TO BE SCARED. IT IS POSSIBLE. I AM GOING TO BE SUCCESSFUL. I AM SUCCESSFUL. I did not have abundance issues… and I am working on my plan right now to attract investors and I will figure all of that stuff out when I get to Mexico. I am going to meet the right people to help me out. All is going to work out. Meanwhile, I need to just simplify my business plan for the next year – to complete my school project that is due next weekend and move on to my next project. So… this is where I went today, trying to make my business plan… planning out the next 5 years of my life, including meeting a partner, going back to Asia, being met there by my new partner, getting pregnant, visiting Canada, coming back to Mexico, giving birth and then a month later jumping into giving another retreat at my retreat center… ooohhh yeah… I have it all planned out. If you work for me, every year you get another bonus and a christmas bonus, help with glasses and dental… haha yep, I have planned it all. So now I just need to stay focused. Finish my internship, work hard, keep myself healthy, motivate myself and others, share my super powers, share my love with my family and make time for romance and ALL IS GOOD.

I think I proved to myself that I would like to help contractors, workers in the industrial sector with their health in the future… but from the outside next time. It feels weird, but I now know that I need to move on from my career as working in the trades- however with that said, I would love to be part of the natural build at my center and other projects in the future. Instead of being a project (my title right now) I will help with projects. I feel I have learned a lot of the past 10 years working here but now I need to put my energy into my new career, project and personal life. It hasn`t always been ideal leaving my life- whatever I was up to, to return back to the plant to work for 1-3 months, without much time for socializing after work. Before we use to work almost every day, 12 hour days… then we were working some 12 hour days and mostly 10.5 days for 21 days… and now only 10 hour days (there for 10.5) for 12 days… so it`s actually economically,socially,spiritually, energetically not worth it anymore. Working these long hours,having no nature time, being here in Winter…I am not cut out for this, I am designed to climb mountains and ride surf boards.
Things always change, and it still is a good opportunity to work here, and I am grateful for this experience and all the great people I work for and with, and the silliness of it all- but I desire to move forward now and make healthier, more sustainable choices for myself- and I have faith that I will be able to, and still see economic abundance in my year. I feel although I definitely need to surround myself with more business minded, entrepreneurs – that also are community and nature orientated.

Oh one thing I kinda was thinking about today was this is- that when I was living in Mexico City, I was making 45 pesos an hour and 30-50 pesos is the average rate most people earn in Oaxaca per hour. They usually earn 200-400 pesos per day… well that is $27.69 CND. I am not saying these families have much… but actually 400 pesos, with food provided and paid lunch is a good deal I think for 6.5 days of work a week a person can take home 2600 pesos. That is 10400 pesos a month… which is what I was living off of for the past year while living there. My goal each month was to make 10,000 pesos, and I always reached that goal until my last couple of months when I cancelled a bunch of things for my internship and I finally went into the hole… which was a bad feeling.
So that is why now- I don`t have any money to do anything aside from work… I am not sending money back home- but I am repaying the money I borrowed from my mom, which is similar. Similar in the fact that, I am here working in Canada, and eating rice and beans every day- working as much as I can- to save, for my return to paradise…to my spiritual family.

And that`s good. Pffff…. it`s all out.
I AM GOING TO FINISH MY BUSINESS PLAN