These past months have been nothing short of exceptional to show me that manifestation really works along side with dedication and staying in the flow.
Fighting is never the answer for me.
Flowing is the answer.

If the waves take me and twirl me- if I resist, I will drown. I need to breathe deep, relax, surrender but stay alert to breathe again at first opportunity.
It is the same with life- if my mind become a violent ocean of thoughts and turbulent energy- I need to not focus on that, but lay back, open my arms – my chest, my hips and reconnect with life source energy. Reconnect with the truth of the moment- and in that moment, everything is perfect. In the fucking present moment, everything is perfect and we only have the present moment.

At the moment, I am abundant in ways that are crazy… a dream life for many and yet some days I feel burdened by the fact that I ran out of cash this month. Yes, it is not good not to be able to pay the things your need to pay them at that moment, but I think this is going to make me think and work smarter.
Money is energy- I am giving A LOT of energy each day to my clients and my business and now I need to manifest the cash flow, so that I can go into my next phase… my finishing my current project phase… finishing my manifestation phase of Spring 2020 before.

This Spring was to dedicate myself here.

Plant trees, get one lot ready to camp. I planted 34 trees I believe, put up a Palapa and built a dry toilet. (The toilet is ready to use, but missing a day or two to finish the construction). The camping is happening on Thursday and a group of friends are camping there on Friday-Sunday, an event magically happening, organized by a friend.) This is amazing as I would loved to have checked this box, but it is not my top priority, but it is happening. Now I just need to keep my trees alive as rainy season just stopped. This will be another investment for water there in the near future. But for now, I may need to dedicate a day a week to go there or find someone to take on that roll.

I wanted to focus on my practice, begin living 100% off of my new profession… and I am now teaching Yoga 3x a week, giving 1 or 2 therapies a day, we are cooking Ayurvedic food in the morning for 1-2 people and I trained someone to be my assistant and team member and this Friday making it an official, legal thing that Svastha has an employee… I renovated the new house and got it ready for Airbnb and last night my second guest just left. I cleaned the room last night, ready for another guest. I have created the plan for renovations in my office and bought the shelves (but need more money to finish), I invested in my landlord to make me a balcony outside my office to serve Ayurvedic tea, and I have my logo redesigned and labels made to create product…. this I also need more more money to invest in the containers, product and printing… but I am ALMOST THERE. I actually need to prioritize this as then we have more things to do in the day, getting this product ready.

I am wanting to live in a world of trading, generosity, sharing.
On Sunday my neighbor started planning this camping trip
On Monday my designer from India, told me he wanted to charge me $100 less than the original plan, and to donate the rest to charity one day, he will receive the benefits in other ways. He has also given me a good deal at the beginning, because I was a good person.
On Tuesday, a man who was my airbnb guest a few weeks ago, told me he was coming back here next week to help me with getting my shopify store up and running, which is a huge thing for me and could potent mean increase abundance financially.
On Monday a new friend and I met and she helped with my instagram and brain storming how I can market Ayurveda to people who do not know what it is. As its powerful and relevant and ready to help others but, people dont have time to care about themselves.
Tomorrow a friend is dropping off a sign for my neighbor, which I gave her a therapy for her to do this.
Today I am giving a free Yoga class to someone, this afternoon a free massage (trade for him helping me with my office renovations), Tonight I am giving Karma Yoga- Yoga Nidra session to a client going through a rough patch. I dont have money to pay my bills yet this month- but I am not worried.

The universe will provide. I will stay disciplined and grateful and things are flowing. Things will continue to flow. I know this. I love this. It makes me want to weap. (Or maybe that is the fact I am emotional a few days before my period and that is probably what is happening… ) No I think I may have emotions again for the first time in a long time. I wept when my designer told me he didn’t want to charge me the 100 dollars.

Last week I took the week off to go to the desert in San Luis Potosi and Huasteca. I will write more about this later but… I offered to Tatawari- I don’t want to be afraid anymore of anything. I don’t want to hold back. I dont want to hold in my emotions, thoughts, feelings… I want to share. I want to be happy. I want to clean my ancestral baggage and sadness and learned behaviors. I want to heal my family of there learned behaviors that no longer serve them- that have never served them. I want to become a leader for my family and lead by example and allow them the opportunity to self heal- for self care… the same way that the universe has allowed me to be on this path of self exploration.

Dedicated to the path of self healing …. because if I heal myself, then I can help others.
And this is showing up.

Since I got back- the people I am attracting, the flow I am feeling- is all pointed towards the direction that, my life is manifesting before me.

There is no more room for junk food and getting drunk. This holds me back, dulls my mind and body.
I don’t want it anymore.
I don’t want dull, superficial conversations- and I don’t remember the last time I had one. (Maybe this is why I don’t go out much anymore.)

I am what I think- I need to begin tracking my dreams and changing them as I am sure I am creating the same reality each night.


30 Minutes over. What I came here to write about, never happened. But I think I like to use writing sometimes as a way to refocus, recap and redirect.